looking at a computer monitor
I want this on my body.
One of my favorite songs.
“So much time and so little to do. Wait a minute. Strike that. Reverse it.”
God has put enough into the world to make faith in Him a most reasonable thing, and He has left enough out to make it impossible to live by sheer reason or observation alone.
—Ravi Zacharias (via desertmanian)
It’s a super tricky, slippy deep and mucky concept, this rebuilding. Because for those of us who have lived a lifetime holding onto ideas about ourselves and who we really are, they are deep set and many vines have grown over this original self, burying them from view. In order to even find the sources of these beliefs with clear enough vision takes years of processing. By processing I mean talking, discussing, reviewing this information with someone who is objective and also educated in the appropriate areas. This is what I wish I could hand to others wrapped up in a box. This processing, this ability, this gift of a listener. This guru, which actually translates to “guide through darkness into light”.
A self-reflective bounce board is something you can recreate with the right kind of research and emotionally healthy friends. But the most important ingredient is commitment. It must come from something you want for yourself, a goal you decide to walk toward in your life, no matter how long it takes you. To let go of the lies that plague you, to forgive yourself, relieve that which makes you feel pain and traps you in cycles. To decide you want to become whole once again is the best state you could ever reach, and for me, the only way I would want to live life.